The pic line, chemo pump, has been removed from Lindell's arm. Jeannie, the oncology nurse, was not receptive to the idea at first because he had seven more radiation treatments. She wanted to do chemo for another week and leave the pic line in for possible further chemo treatments later.
However, after talking with us and reviewing his records she removed it. The gist of it is that further chemo would be of no real benefit. We said if the quality of life was not any better and they were not optimistic of a good percentage of improvement with the cancer than we would not do anymore chemo. We will know more after the CT Scan in a few weeks.
I've been questioning "WHY". Like I told Lindell, we're no better than anyone else that has to deal with diseases but we are also no worse than some who don't. We've served God to the best of our ability for 30+ years and I have no regrets about serving Him. I wouldn't go back for anything in the world and I will praise Him with my dying breath but I still don't understand.
When this all began to happen people told us that this would seem like a bump and that God had plans for us. We have been believing that this would all end and we would do
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I knew God was speaking to me. We've watched our four sons as they've stepped up and did things we dreamed of doing. There have been other young ministers we've touched who have said they would not be where they were today if not for us. We are satisfied with that. Not that we would have liked to really live out our dreams but God is in control and we trust Him.
To our sons Lindell is a hero. None of us know what the future holds. I do know who holds my future.